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Die Vampire Die
From the Musical Title of Show
Susan:
There are some people in the world who say that writing stories,
or composing music or dancing sparkly dances is easy for them.
Nothing interferes with their ability to create.
While I celebrate their creative freedom,
a little part of me just wants to punch those motherfuckers in the teeth.
This song, I sing this song for you guys and for all the rest of us. Help me out y’all
Backup:
We’ll sing backup
Susan:
You have a story to tell, a novel you keep in a drawer.
Backup:
Old sock drawer!
Susan:
You have a painting to paint, but you lazy like an old French whore
Backup:
Je suis whore
Susan:
You have a movie to make, Shrinky Dinks you can bake
but you best grab a stake, cause,
in sweep the vampires, in creep the vampires, knee deep in vampires,
Filling you with doubt. Insecurity, ‘bout what you art should be
in sweep the vampires
All:
Die vampire
Susan:
You sketched that turtle you saw in an ad on late-night cable TV
Backup:
Tippy Turtle!
Susan:
But your fourth grade teacher said
Female Backup:
You can’t draw
Susan:
Aww, those vampires just won’t let you be
Backup:
Fuck you Ms. Johnson, Word!
Susan:
And when they come run like hell, see those bats in your belfry, then call on Van Helsing.
Susan:
In swoosh
Backup:
Ooh, the vampires
Susan:
in a whoosh
Backup:
ooh, the vampires,
Susan:
Babaganoosh
Backup:
ooh, all the vampires
Susan:
Filling you with thoughts of
Backup:
Self consciousness
Susan:
Feelings of
Backup:
Worthlessness
Susan:
They’ll make you
Backup:
Second guess
Die vam-
All:
-pire!
There are so many vampires, inside, outside, and nationwide,
it helps to recognize them with this vampire hunting guide!
Listen closely,
a vampire is any person or thought or feeling
that stands between you and your creative self expression,
but they can assume many seductive forms.
Here’s a few of them!
Backup:
Tell us Susan!
Susan:
First up are you pigmy vampires.
They’ll swarm around you head like gnats and say things like:
Male Backup:
Your teeth need whitening
Female Backup:
You went to state school?
Male Backup:
You sound weird
All:
Shakespeare, Sondheim, Sedaris
Susan:
Did it before you and better than you, or they might say that you cannot
sing good enough to be in a musical, or they might say:
Backup:
Ooh, your song’s derivative,
Ooh, your song’s derivative,
Ooh, your song’s derivative,

Susan:
To keep that song from you! Just tell them:
Backup:
Die vampire, die!
Susan:
Brothers and sisters, next up is the air freshener vampire,
she might look like you mama, or your old fat-ass, fat aunt Fanny.
She smells something unpleasant in what you’re creating.
She’ll urge you to:
Backup:
(Spraying sound)
Susan:
It with some pine fresh smell ‘em ups.
The air freshener vampire doesn’t want you to write about
Backup:
bad language, blood, or blow jobs
Susan:
She wants you to clean it up and clean it out.
Which will leave your work toothless, gutless, and crotchless
but, you’ll be left with two tight paragraphs,
All kittens that your grandma would be so proud of.
You look at that air freshener vampire in her fat ass, fat old fuckin’ face and you say
All:
Morte Vampir Morte
Susan:
The last vampire is the mother of all vampires and that is the vampire of despair.
It’ll wake you up at 4am to say things like:
Backup:
Who do you think you’re kidding?
You look like a fool.
No matter how hard you try, you’ll never be good enough
Susan:
Why is it that if some dude walked up to me on the subway platform
and said these things, I’d think he was a mentally ill asshole,
but if the vampire inside my head says it,
It’s the voice of reason.
Backup:
You have a story to tell, pull your novel out of that sock drawer!
You have a painting to paint, you best paint it and then paint some more!

Susan:
Oh baby, you must escape and grab it by the nape of its neck, by the trachea
fuckin’ break it, go on drive a stake in,
Yeah there’s no mistaking, now you’re shake and bakin?
All:
Die, vampire
I said, ‘Die, vampire’
I said, ‘Now die vam-pi-re, die!’
All:
In fly the vampires, oh my the vampires, then die the vampires,
filling you with life, creativity, all that you heart should be, out go the vampires
Die vampire, die vampire, die vampire, die!






These two are the same song, just two different versions; the actual Disney song and the one from the soundtrack.

The Actual Disney Song:



Let it Go (From "Frozen")
By Idina Menzel
The snow glows white on the mountain tonight
Not a footprint to be seen.
A kingdom of isolation,
and it looks like I'm the Queen
The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside
Couldn't keep it in;
Heaven knows I've tried

Don't let them in,
don't let them see
Be the good girl you always have to be
Conceal, don't feel,
don't let them know
Well now they know

Let it go, let it go
Can't hold it back anymore

Let it go, let it go
Turn away and slam the door
I don't care
what they're going to say
Let the storm rage on.
The cold never bothered me anyway

It's funny how some distance
Makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me
Can't get to me at all

It's time to see what I can do
To test the limits and break through
No right, no wrong, no rules for me,
I'm free!

Let it go, let it go
I am one with the wind and sky
Let it go, let it go
You'll never see me cry
Here I stand
And here I'll stay
Let the storm rage on

My power flurries through the air into the ground
My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around
And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast
I'm never going back, the past is in the past

Let it go, let it go
And I'll rise like the break of dawn
Let it go, let it go
That perfect girl is gone
Here I stand
In the light of day
Let the storm rage on

The cold never bothered me anyway!



From the Soundtrack:



Let it Go [Frozen Soundtrack]
By Demi Lovato
Let it go, let it go
Can't hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn my back and slam the door

The snow glows white on the mountain tonight,
Not a footprint to be seen.
A kingdom of isolation and it looks like I'm the queen.
The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside.
Couldn't keep it in, Heaven knows I tried.

Don't let them in, don't let them see,
Be the good girl you always had to be.
Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know.
Well, now they know.

Let it go, let it go
Can't hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn my back and slam the door
And here I stand and here I'll stay
Let it go, let it go
The cold never bothered me anyway

It's funny how some distance makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me can't get to me at all.
Up here in the cold thin air I finally can breathe.
I know I left a life behind but I'm too relieved to grieve.

Let it go, let it go
Can't hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn my back and slam the door
And here I stand, and here I'll stay
Let it go, let it go
The cold never bothered me anyway

Standing frozen
In the life I've chosen.
You won't find me.
The past is all behind me
Buried in the snow.

Let it go, let it go
Can't hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn my back and slam the door
And here I stand, and here I'll stay
Let it go, let it go
The cold never bothered me anyway, yeah, whoa
(Na na, na na, na na na na) [4x]
Let it go yeah
Na, na.
Here I stand.
Let it go, let it go, oh
Let it go.






Recently reheard and wanted to share.



Darkside
By Kelly Clarkson
Oh oh oh, there's a place that I know
It's not pretty there and few have ever gone
If I show it to you now
Will it make you run away?

Or will you stay
Even if it hurts
Even if I try to push you out
Will you return?
And remind me who I really am
Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Like a diamond
From black dust
It's hard to know
What can become
If you give up
So don't give up on me
Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Don't run away
Don't run away
Just tell me that you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Don't run away
Don't run away
Just promise me you will stay
Promise me you will stay

Will you love me? ohh

Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Don't run away
Don't run away

Don't run away
Promise you'll stay







Found in a journal by LiliWrites



Better Days
By The Goo Goo Dolls
And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cause I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And designer love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cause everyone is forgiven now
Cause tonight's the night the world begins again

I need someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child who saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cause everyone is forgiven now
Cause tonight's the night the world begins again

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cause everyone is forgiven now
Cause tonight's the night the world begins again
Cause tonight's the night the world begins again







Been meaning to put up this one. Another great lyrical song.



Unconditionally
By Katy Perry
Oh no, did I get too close?
Oh, did I almost see what's really on the inside?
All your insecurities
All the dirty laundry
Never made me blink one time

Unconditional, unconditionally
I will love you unconditionally
There is no fear now
Let go and just be free
I will love you unconditionally

Come just as you are to me
Don't need apologies
Know that you are worthy
I'll take your bad days with your good
Walk through the storm I would
I do it all because I love you, I love you

Unconditional, unconditionally
I will love you unconditionally
There is no fear now
Let go and just be free
I will love you unconditionally

So open up your heart and just let it begin
Open up your heart and just let it begin
Open up your heart and just let it begin
Open up your heart

Acceptance is the key to be
To be truly free
Will you do the same for me?

Unconditional, unconditionally
I will love you unconditionally
And there is no fear now
Let go and just be free
'Cause I will love you unconditionally (oh yeah)
I will love you (unconditionally)
I will love you
I will love you unconditionally







Another old one that I was reminded of today (I found my iPod and put it on random).



Stand By Your Side
By Celine Dion
I cry and you comfort me
I'm lost and you hear my scream
So it's hard to watch you falling
When you run so deep in me
You live in me

Gonna stand by your side now
Let me kiss all your tears away
You can stay in my arms now
And I know I can make you believe again

I walk but you can run through fire
I search for reasons and baby you inspire
But I know somebody hurt you
And I know you really need a friend
Well you can take my hand

Gonna stand by your side now
Let me kiss all your tears away
You can stay in my arms now
And I know I can make you believe again

So when you're feeling like you can't go on
Don't you know
You never walk alone no
And you live in me

Gonna stand by your side now
Let me kiss all your tears away
You can stay in my arms now
And I know I can make you believe again

I'm gonna stand, stand by your side
Kiss all your tears away tonight
I'm gonna stand, stand by your side
Make you believe again
I wanna look in your eyes now and see you smiling again







There is a religious part but you can ignore that if you want to.



Someday
By JJ Heller
One day you'll feel the sun
Warming your callused skin
The ropes will come undone
No more wars left to win

Someday my dearest friend
Someday though I don't know when
Oooo you will live in peace.

Your battered heart will soar
Your wounds turned into wings
No one will keep the score
You wouldn't care anyway

Someday my dearest friend
Someday though I don't know when
Oooo you will live in peace.

May you see redemption
On this side of heaven
May you see redemption
On this side of heaven
May you see redemption
On this side of heaven
My friend

Someday my dearest friend
Someday though I don't know when
Oooo you will live

Someday my dearest friend
Someday though I don't know when
Oooo you will live in peace








Cheer Me Up
By Victorious Cast ft Victoria Justice
You get me out of my seat, it's like I've been in bed for a week
I've been slippin' n' slidin' all over the place, and nobody cares
And I'm such a disgrace
You get me out of my mood, that's something only you can do,
Cause I feel like I'm home when I'm in your arms
And that's why I need you to...

Cheer Me Up,
Come on dance with me,
And you take my hand.
Cheer Me Up
Even if we're the only ones dancing
Cheer Me Up
Please won't you cheer me up
Even if were the only ones dancing

Give me a reason to smile, the kind that will last for a while,
Like only you know how, make it OK now,
You got your ways to make this girl's day
It's the magic that's in your touch; it makes everything mean so much...
The poetry in you eyes is enough in itself to take me to a high...
Whooo... (Take me to a high)
You Gotta Cheer Me Up...

Cheer Me Up,
Come on dance with me,
And you take my hand.
Cheer Me Up
Even if we're the only ones dancing
Cheer Me Up
Please won’t you cheer me up
Even if were the only ones dancing

You turn my frown upside down,
My smile's lost 'n' found when you are around
(You Cheer Me Up, Cheer Me Up)
You turn my frown upside down,
My smile's lost 'n' found when you are around

Cheer Me Up,
Come on dance with me,
And you take my hand,
Cheer Me Up,
Even if we're the only ones dancing
Cheer Me Up,
Please won’t you cheer me up
Even if we're the only ones dancing

Only you got the magic, only you got the key...to my heart
To my heart, yeah...yeah...Oh
Only you got the magic, only you got the way to my heart...

Cheer Me Up,
Come on dance with me,
And you take my hand,
Cheer Me Up,
Even if we're the only ones dancing
Cheer Me Up,
Please won’t you cheer me up
Even if we're the only ones dancing.







I Stand
By Idina Menzel
When you ask me, who I am:
What is my vision? And do I have a plan?
Where is my strength? Have I nothing to say?
I hear the words in my head, but I push them away.

'Cause I stand for the power to change,
I live for the perfect day.
I love till it hurts like crazy,
I hope for a hero to save me.
I stand for the strange and lonely,
I believe there's a better place.
I don't know if the sky is heaven,
But I pray anyway.

And I don't know
What tomorrow brings
The road less traveled
Will it set us free?
Cause we are taking it slow,
These tiny legacies.
I don't try and change the world;
But what will you make of me?

'Cause I stand for the power to change,
I live for the perfect day.
I love till it hurts like crazy,
I hope for a hero to save me.
I stand for the strange and lonely,
I believe there's a better place.
I don't know if the sky is heaven,
But I pray anyway.

With the slightest of breezes
We fall just like leaves
As the rain washes us from the ground
We forget who we are
We can't see in the dark
And we quickly get lost in the crowd

'Cause I stand for the power to change,
I live for the perfect day.
I love till it hurts like crazy,
I hope for a hero to save me.
'Cause I stand for the power to change,
I live for the perfect day.
I love till it hurts like crazy,
I hope for a hero to save me.
I stand for the strange and lonely,
I believe there's a better place.
I don't know if the sky is heaven,
But I pray anyway.







Brave
By Idina Menzel
Don't know just where I'm going
And tomorrow, it's a little overwhelming
And the air is cold
And I'm not the same anymore
I've been running in your direction
For to long now
I've lost my own reflection
And I can't look down
If you're not there to catch me when I fall.

If this is the moment I stand here on my own
If this is my rite of passage that somehow leads me home
I might be afraid
But it's my turn to be brave
If this is the last chance before we say goodbye
At least it's the first day of the rest of my life
I can't be afraid
Cause it's my turn to be brave

All along all I ever wanted, was to be the light
When your life was daunting
But I can't see mine
When I feel as though you're pushing me away
Well who's to blame, are we making the right choices
Cause we can't be sure if we're hearing our own voices
As we close the door even though we are so desperate to stay

If this is the moment I stand here on my own
If this is my rite of passage that somehow leads me home
I might be afraid
But it's my turn to be brave
If this is the last chance before we say goodbye
At least it's the first day of the rest of my life
I can't be afraid
Cause it's my turn to be brave

And I might still cry
And I might still bleed
These thorns in my side
This heart on my sleeve
And lightening may strike
This ground at my feet
And I might still crash
But I still believe

This is the moment I stand here all alone
With everything I have inside, everything I own
I might be afraid
But it's my turn to be brave
If this is the last time before we say goodbye
At least it's the first day of the rest of my life
I can't be afraid
Cause it's my turn to be brave








Let Me Go
By Avril Lavigne ft. Chad Kroeger
Love that once hung on the wall
Used to mean something, but now it means nothing
The echoes are gone in the hall
But I still remember, the pain of December

Oh, there isn't one thing left you could say
I'm sorry it's too late

[Chorus]
I'm breaking free from these memories
Gotta let it go, just let it go
I've said goodbye
Set it all on fire
Gotta let it go, just let it go

[Chad Kroeger]
You came back to find I was gone
And that place is empty, like the hole that was left in me
Like we were nothing at all
It's not what you meant to me
Thought we were meant to be

Oh, there isn't one thing left you could say
I'm sorry it's too late

[Chorus]
I'm breaking free from these memories
Gotta let it go, just let it go
I've said goodbye
Set it all on fire
Gotta let it go, just let it go

I let it go, and now I know
A brand new life, is down this road
And when it's right, you always know
So this time, I won't let go

There's only one thing left here to say
Love's never too late

[Chorus]
I've broken free from those memories
I've let it go, I've let it go
And two goodbyes, led to this new life
Don't let me go, don't let me go

Don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go

Won't let you go, don't let me go
Won't let you go, don't let me go





What would happen if you took off your 'mask' and let the world see exactly what you are feeling?



See Beneath Your Beautiful
By Labrinth feat. Emeli Sandé
You tell all the boys "No"
Makes you feel good, yeah.
I know you're out of my league
But that won't scare me away, oh, no

You've carried on so long,
You couldn't stop if you tried it.
You've built your wall so high
That no one could climb it,
But I'm gonna try.

Would you let me see beneath your beautiful?
Would you let me see beneath your perfect?
Take it off now, girl, take it off now, girl
I wanna see inside
Would you let me see beneath your beautiful tonight?

You let all the girls go
Makes you feel good, don't it?
Behind your Broadway show
I heard a boy say, "Please, don't hurt me"

You've carried on so long
You couldn't stop if you tried it.
You've built your wall so high
That no one could climb it.
But I'm gonna try

Would you let me see beneath your beautiful?
Would you let me see beneath your perfect?
Take it off now, boy, take it off now, boy
I wanna see inside
Would you let me see beneath your beautiful tonight, oh, tonight?

See beneath, see beneath,
I...
Tonight
I...

I'm gonna climb on top your ivory tower
I'll hold your hand and then we'll jump right out
We'll be falling, falling but that's OK
'Cause I'll be right here
I just wanna know

Would you let me see beneath your beautiful?
Would you let me see beneath your perfect?
Take it off now, girl, take it off now, girl (take it off now, boy,take it off now, boy)
'Cause I wanna see inside
Would you let me see beneath your beautiful tonight, oh, oh, oh, tonight?
See beneath your beautiful, oh, tonight.
We ain't perfect, we ain't perfect, no.
Would you let me see beneath your beautiful tonight?








Roar
By Katy Perry
I used to bite my tongue and hold my breath
Scared to rock the boat and make a mess
So I sat quietly, agreed politely
I guess that I forgot I had a choice
I let you push me past the breaking point
I stood for nothing, so I fell for everything

You held me down, but I got up (HEY!)
Already brushing off the dust
You hear my voice, you hear that sound
Like thunder gonna shake the ground
You held me down, but I got up (HEY!)
Get ready cause I’ve had enough
I see it all, I see it now

[Chorus]
I got the eye of the tiger, a fighter, dancing through the fire
Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me roar
Louder, louder than a lion
Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me roar
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
You’re gonna hear me roar

Now I’m floating like a butterfly
Stinging like a bee I earned my stripes
I went from zero, to my own hero

You held me down, but I got up (HEY!)
Already brushing off the dust
You hear my voice, you hear that sound
Like thunder gonna shake the ground
You held me down, but I got up (HEY!)
Get ready ’cause I’ve had enough
I see it all, I see it now

[Chorus]
I got the eye of the tiger, a fighter, dancing through the fire
‘Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me roar
Louder, louder than a lion
‘Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me roar
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
You’re gonna hear me roar
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
You'll hear me roar
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
You're gonna hear me roar...

Roar-or, roar-or, roar-or, roar-or, roar-or

I got the eye of the tiger, a fighter, dancing through the fire
‘Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me roar
Louder, louder than a lion
‘Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me roar
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
You’re gonna hear me roar
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
You'll hear me roar
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
You're gonna hear me roar...








I Didn't Know My Own Strength
By Whitney Houston
Lost touch with my soul
I had nowhere to turn, I had nowhere to go
Lost sight of my dream
Thought it would be the end of me

I, I thought I'd never make it through
I had no hope to hold on to
I, I thought I would break

I didn't know my own strength
And I crashed down and I tumbled, but I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didn't know my own strength

Survived my darkest hour, my faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up, hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didn't know my own strength

Found hope in my heart
I found the light to life my way out of the dark
Found all that I need here inside of me

Oh, I thought I'd never find my way
I thought I'd never lift that weight
I thought I would break

I didn't know my own strength
And I crashed down and I tumbled, but I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didn't know my own strength

Survived my darkest hour, my faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up, hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didn't know my own strength

There were so many times
I wondered how I'd get through the night
I thought I took all that I could take

I didn't know my own strength
And I crashed down and I tumbled, but I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
Oh, I didn't know my own strength

My faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up, I hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didn't know my own strength

I was not built to break, no, no
I got to know my own strength








The Call
By Matt Kennon
Today was gonna be the day
He'd already wrote the note
And parked that Chevrolet
At the end of that dead end road
Had his finger on the trigger; just about to end everything
He was taking one last long breathe; when he heard his cell phone ring

And his best friends say man where you been?
We're headed down to the lake this weekend
You better not miss it 'cause buddy I swear
It won't be the same If you ain't there
And I told that girl that you like so much
You were coming along and her eyes lit up
I better let you go man I really hope I didn't catch you in the middle of anything

He said you kinda did but I don't mind at all
I'm glad you called

In another town down the road
In the backseat of a car
Two 18 year olds had let a kiss go to far
He said how are we gonna have this child
When were both headed off to school?
He convinced her late one night there's only one thing to do
She was scared to death in that waiting room
When the nurse asked how far along are you
She said 5 weeks and just about then her phone lit up
And his call came in
Saying baby I was wrong about everything
I've already bought you a diamond ring we' re gonna start a life
Would you be my wife
Boy or girl; pink or blue; yeah either way
All she could say as she felt those tear drops falls was
I'm so glad you called

If someone you know is weighing on your mind
And needs a friend on the end of that other line
Don't hesitate what you say may seem so small
But who knows
They might be glad you called

So make the call

Yeah make that call





The music video is a bit weird, but the lyrics are the most important.



Brave
By: Sara Bareilles
You can be amazing
You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love
Or you can start speaking up
Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way that words do
When they settle ‘neath your skin
Kept on the inside and no sunlight
Sometimes a shadow wins
But I wonder what would happen if you

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

Everybody’s been there,
Everybody’s been stared down by the enemy
Fallen for the fear
And done some disappearing,
Bow down to the mighty
Don’t run, stop holding your tongue
Maybe there’s a way out of the cage where you live
Maybe one of these days you can let the light in
Show me how big your brave is

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

And since your history of silence
Won’t do you any good,
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don’t you tell them the truth?

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
See you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you








Against The Night
By: Jason Webly
Hold on to these words,
I'd like to think that they may offer
Some protection,
Against the night.

Against the night,
Your life can feel transparent,
A reflection,
A trick of light.

So when sleep just won't come,
And you've got no occupation,
But nibbling at the fruit
Of the melancholy tree,
Just hold on to these words,
Hold on to me.

Just hold on to these words,
They're the best I've got to offer
At the moment,
As a lullaby.

As a lullaby,
You can lay down by the tracks
And feel the world
Slip by.







The Way You Wear Your Troubles
By: Eleanor McEvoy
The way you wear your troubles
I swear they gonna wear you to the bone

The way you wear your troubles
I swear they gonna wear you to the bone

Well I know you have to wear them
but you don't have to wear them alone

The cross on your shoulder
belongs to you and to nobody else

The cross on your shoulder
belongs to you and to nobody else

Well I know you have to bear it
But you don't have to bear it by yourself

The road that you're walking
Is long and grey and lonely and you wait

The road that you're walking
Is long and grey and lonely and you wait

Now wouldn't it be easier
If somebody was walking by your side




(Though personally I think her choice of music video is slightly weird, that doesn't detract from the lyrics or their meaning).



The Voice Within
By: Christina Aguilera
Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Yeah...
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know

You'll make it
You'll make it
Just don't go forsaking yourself
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall







I Am Amazing
By: Philippa Hanna
I don't want to waste anymore time in the mirror
Watching my face, never change I don't feel beautiful today
And I don't wanna waste
Anymore hard-earned cash on these 'miracles'
That never change the way I feel don't make me beautiful today
How long can I hide-away beneath this disguise?
And what drastic measure do I have to take to realise...

That I am amazing, in spite of what I can see,
When I look at myself wishing I could be anyone other than me
Cos I was created
With everything I could ever need
So I'm not gonna change
I'm gonna stay just the way God made me

I'm not gonna take
Anymore of these lies they've been feeding me
Not gonna listen to the voices of my enemies today
With my feet on solid ground
I'm gonna turn it all around
Because it's time I realised I'm truly beautiful inside
How long can I hide-away beneath this disguise?
And what drastic measure do I have to take to realise...

That I am amazing, in spite of what I can see,
When I look at myself wishing I could be anyone other than me
Cos I was created
With everything I could ever need
So I'm not gonna change
I'm gonna stay just the way God made me

And who am I to say that I could do a better job than him?

Cos we are amazing
If only we could believe that it's all in His hands
We're a part of a plan that's much bigger than us
Yes we are amazing
There's nothing we can't achieve
and we don't need to change
So I'm gonna stay, just the way God made me

Not gonna listen to the voices of my enemies today


Songs

Name of Image




Family Portrait
By P!nk
Uh, uh, some deep shit, uh, uh

Momma please stop cryin, I can't stand the sound
Your pain is painful and its tearin' me down
I hear glasses breakin as I sit up in my bed
I told dad you didn't mean those nasty things you
said

You fight about money, bout me and my brother
And this I come home to, this is my shelter
It ain't easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, you'll see
I don't want love to destroy me like it has done
my family

Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't
leave

Daddy please stop yellin, I can't stand the sound

Make mama stop cryin, cuz I need you around
My mama she loves you, no matter what she says
its true
I know that she hurts you, but remember I love
you, too

I ran away today, ran from the noise, ran away
Don't wanna go back to that place, but don't have
no choice, no way
It ain't easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, well I've seen
I don't want love to destroy me like it did my
family

Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't
leave

In our family portrait, we look pretty happy
Let's play pretend, let's act like it comes
naturally
I don't wanna have to split the holidays
I don't want two addresses
I don't want a step-brother anyways
And I don't want my mom to have to change her
last name

In our family portrait we look pretty happy
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
Let's play pretend, act like it goes naturally

In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
(I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do
anything)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
Let's play pretend act and like it comes so
naturally
(I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't
leave)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
(I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't
leave)

Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Turn around please
Remember that the night you left you took my
shining star?
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Don't leave us here alone

Mom will be nicer
I'll be so much better, I'll tell my brother
Oh, I won't spill the milk at dinner
I'll be so much better, I'll do everything right
I'll be your little girl forever
I'll go to sleep at night







Member suggestion by storystosee



Split Personality
By P!nk
I do not trust, so I cannot love
(can't no man be trusted)
Oh no no no
And I would not dare to open up
(this life of yours is dusted Pink)
Well my rent's past due and now my car won't start, I hate the bus
(well aren't you glad you have somebody to talk to)
Tell me what do they see when they look at me
Do they see my many personalities

[Chorus:]
Can you help me
Does anybody hear me
Can they even see me
This is my reality, oh oh

(can it be my turn now, is it my turn Pink)
Said I'll say it again, you're my only friend
(I protect you from the world, I basically protect you from yourself)
Though I can't go on, I'm not satisfied with this being the end
(this is just the beginning)
Tell me why can't I just reach up and simply touch the sky
Tell me why can't I spread my arms and fly and fly and fly
Tell me why can't I say this, why can't I do that
Tell me what do they want from me, tell me how to act

[Repeat Chorus 2x]

So I'm putting it all on the table
(tell em' Pink)
You don't know me well enough to label me, sick, or even disturbed
When you break it down I'm just two girls
Trying to blend, trying to vibe
(trying)
Trying to live just one life
(so hard)
Everybody's got insanities...I got a split personality
Tell me why can't I just reach up and simply touch the sky
(why can't you)
Tell me why can't I spread my arms and fly and fly and fly
(you can)
Tell me why can't I say this, why can't I do that
(just do it)
Tell me what do they want from me, tell me how to act
(I can't, I can't)

[Repeat Chorus 3x]

Can you help me
(talk to me, talk to me, don't ignore me, I can't take it)
Do you hear me
Do you see me everytime
(oh calm down, it's not that serious, we'll be just fine without them)
It's all mine...it's my reality...it's just too much for me
(you're my friend, you're my friend...Pink!...Pink!)








Sophie
By: Eleanor McEvoy
I
Sophie cannot finish her dinner
Says she’s eatin’ enough
Sophie’s tryin’ to make herself thinner
Says she’s eatin’ too much
And her brother says, you’re joking,
And her mother’s heart is broken
Sophie has a hard time copin’
And, besides, sophie’s hopin’

Chorus
She can be like all the other girls
Be just like all the other girls
Livin’ in an ordinary world
Just to fit in, in the ordinary world
Just to fit in like an ordinary girl.

Ii
Sophie’s losin’ weight by the minute
How did things get this bad?
Sophie’s family don’t understand it
Gave her all that they had
And her sister won’t stop cryin’
’cause her father says she’s dyin’
Sophie says she’s really tryin’
Problem is, sophie’s lying.

Repeat chorus

How did she get this way?
How did she get this way?
Through tryin’ to hide it.
What does it take to say,
What does it take to say
She’s dying, sophie’s dying to ¡­

Repeat chorus




This was suggested to us by deci-blu



Hold On 'Til May
By Pierce The Viel

She sits up high surrounded by the sun
One million branches and she loves every one
"Mom and dad, did you search for me?
I've been up here so long I'm going crazy"

And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
3-2-1 where did it go?

Now don't be crazy
Yes now of course you can stay here.
Been in a touring band for going on ten years.
Big deal, I guess you're official"
I only said it 'cause I know what it's like to feel

Burned out
It gets you down,
We've all been there sometimes
But tonight I'll make you feel beautiful once again

And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
3-2-1 where did it go?

If I were you, I'd put that away
See, you're just wasted
And thinking about the past again
Darling you'll be okay

And she said,

[Lindsey:]
"If you were me, you'd do the same
'Cause I can't take anymore
I'll draw the shades and close the door
Everything's not alright and I would rather..."

And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
Tell me where did it go?




Songs

Name of Image

Admin suggestion by Diluculi



Guardian Angel
By Lovex
Through the darkness and broken glass
I'll come for you, if you only ask
And there i'll stand
Just for you

Million miles between our lives
can't keep us apart from our grieving hearts
sealed with love
God speed my darling

For your name
I'm calling
For our love
I'm falling... on my knees

And if you cry, i'll hold your head up high
I'll be there by your side
I will be your guardian angel
And if you cry, i'll hold your head up high
I'll be there by your side
I will be your guardian angel

In the garden of lonely love
I'll wait for you, 'till the time will come
When i see you smile
Just for me

Love and loss embrace the pain
You can't hide your tears in the rain
I'll be there
Just wait my darling

And if you cry, i'll hold your head up high
I'll be there by your side
I will be your guardian angel
And if you cry, i'll hold your head up high
I'll be there by your side
I will be your guardian angel
I will do the things that I can to light your life and see you smile
And it brakes my heart in two...

'til I see you smile
just for me
'til I hear you breath
calm and free
and until you sleep
I won't let you grieve







Admin Suggestion by Diluculi



Kiss of Hope
By Negative
Once upon a time you were a child
And you started this endless fight
Life is built on a dream, disappointment, stormy seas
Always hoped for so much more
Than life had offered you before
Now you start to see new things
Like a flower blooms in spring

A new day will come
And you'll find all the answers
And the kiss of hope
Comes powerful and fast
As you feel so alive, for the first time in your life
You are relieved

Never lost your faith in me, even when we lost belief
We were silent and displaced
We always knew we'd find our way

Look around and you will see
There is so much love for you to receive even in our darkest days
We always knew we'd find our way

A new day will come
And you'll find all the answers...

And I see this world is beautiful
Full of opportunities
It was made for you and me

A new day will come
And you'll find all the answers
And the kiss of hope
Comes powerful and fast
As you feel so alive, for the first time in your life
A new day will born






Admin suggestion by Diluculi



Neverending Parade
By Negative
Loving arms around us for you`re the
kind who needs refuge, your loving
eyes see right through me, cannot
play a saint, cannot pretend...

Neverending rain on your little
parade, nothing to do with a love affair.
When heaven cries I will be near you
and walk with you through all your pain

Do not forget what we are,
until the end, meant to be one.
When heaven cries and you are
gone, you stole my soul,
it breaks my heart.







Admin Suggestion by Diluculi



White Night Fantasy
By Nightwish
Enchantress came to me
And said, meet me at the lake tonight

I hunt this song to the white
Through the shroud of snow I saw paradise
Peace, no more lies

Crestfallen soul
Rest for this night
Love is here
Right here under my wings

I dream of wolves
With them I run
For me she lengthened the night
I am home
I am in peace

Crestfallen soul
Rest for this night
Love is here
Right here under my wings






Admin suggestion by Diluculi



This Will Make You Love Again
By IMAX
When the joys of living just leave you cold
Frozen from the failing mess you've made your own
And if you want an ending to your screenplay life
Well here's the consolation
That will change your heart and mind

And all the glitz messiah's just pass the time
A cure for no real sickness, cross your hopes and die
Your supermarket jesus comes with smiles and lies
Where justice he delays is always justice he denies

This will make you love again...

And now you're safe
Love again
To feel the rays
Love again
The sweet delays
Love again
And shoot the breeze

Early thursday mornings
Wipe away the flies
The crossfire fight for action
In between your thighs
And every touch is sacred
When they leave the room
If i have to switch the lights off
I wanna switch them off with you

This will make you love again...

And now you're safe
Love again
To feel the rays
Love again
The sweet delays
Love again
And shoot the breeze
Love again






Found it on a journal by Contradictory55 and HAD to share it with you. - Diluculi



On The Brightside
By Never Shout Never
I met a man of two feet tall
This man was quite ambitious
In a world that is so vicious to us all
I said, "Hi," as he replied
He said, "Listen to these words
That I have lived by my whole life

"You're only as tall as your heart will let you be
And you're only as small as the world will make you seem
When the going gets rough and you feel like you may fall
Just look on the brightside - you're roughly six feet tall"

I met a man of 12 feet tall
He towered like a giant
In a world that was defiant of his height
I said, "Hi," as he replied
He said, "Listen to these words
That I have dreaded my whole life

"You're only as tall as your heart will let you be
And you're only as small as the world will make you seem
When the going gets rough and you feel like you may fall
Just look on the brightside - you're roughly six feet tall."

I am a man of six feet tall
Just looking for some answers
In a world that answers none of them at all
I'll say, "Hi," but not reply
To the letters that you write
Because I found some peace of mind

Cause I'm only as tall as my heart will let me be
And I'm only as small as the world will make me seem
When the going gets rough and I feel like I may fall
I'll look on the brightside - I'm roughly six feet tall.




By qwibes.



Don't Carry It All -- The Decemberists
By Lindsey Stirling and Shaun Canon
Here we come to a turning of the season
Witness to the arc towards the sun
A neighbor's blessed burden within reason
Becomes a burden borne of all and one

And nobody, nobody knows
Let the yoke fall from our shoulders
Don't carry it all, don't carry it all
We are all our hands and holders
Beneath this bold and brilliant sun
And this I swear to all

A monument to build beneath the arbors
Upon a plinth that towers towards the trees
Let every vessel pitching hard to starboard
Lay its head on summer's freckled knees

And nobody, nobody knows
Let the yoke fall from our shoulders
Don't carry it all, don't carry it all
We are all our hands and holders
Beneath this bold and brilliant sun
And this I swear to all, this I swear to all

There a wreath of trillium and ivy
Laid upon the body of a boy
Lazy will the loam come from its hiding
Return this quiet searcher to soil

So raise a glass to turnings of the season
And watch it as it arcs towards the sun
And you must bear your neighbor's burden within reason
And your labors will be born when all is done

And nobody, nobody knows
Let the yoke fall from our shoulders
Don't carry it all, don't carry it all
We are all our hands and holders
Beneath this bold and brilliant sun
And this I swear to all, and this I swear to all

And this I swear to all, and this I swear to all
To all, to all, to all





Suggested by qwibes as an admin song suggestion. Think of it this way: You may think that you are heading to the place with the best views (wherever you believe you end up when you die) but you will be missed even for something as simple as your hair or your walk.



When I'm Gone (Cups)
By Anna Kendrick From Pitch Perfect
I got my ticket for the long way round
Two bottles of whiskey for the way
And I sure would like some sweet company
And I'm leaving tomorrow
what you say

When I'm gone...
When I'm gone..
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me by my hair
You're gonna miss me everywhere
Oh, you're gonna miss me when I'm gone

When I'm gone
When I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me by my walk...Ohh
You're gonna miss me by my talk
Oh, you're gonna miss me when I'm gone

I got my ticket for the long way round
The one with the prettiest of views
It's got mountains, it's got rivers
Its got sights to give you shivers
But it sure would be prettier with you

When I'm gone
When I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me by my walk
You're gonna miss me by my talk
Oh, you're gonna miss me when I'm gone

When I'm gone
When I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me by my hair
You're gonna miss me everywhere
Oh, you're sure gonna miss me when I'm gone

When I'm gone
When I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me by my walk
You're gonna miss me by my talk
Oh, you're gonna miss me when I'm gone




Suggested by Diluculi.



You Are Not Alone
By Michael Jackson
Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

you are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
you are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

you are not alone
I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

you are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...
Not alone ohh
You are not alone
You are not alone
Say it again
You are not alone
You are not alone
Not alone, Not alone
If you just reach out for me girl
In the morning, in the evening
Not alone, not alone
You and me not alone
Oh together together
Not not being alone
Not not being alone



Songs

Name of Image


Member suggestion by greendayfan123456789



The Scientist
By Coldplay
Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I'll set you apart

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming in tails
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start.

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start

Ooooohhhhhhh [4x]






Member Suggestion by killerlord123



Unbreakable Heart
By Three Days Grace
Hijacked when you weren’t looking
Behind your back people are talking
Using words that cut you down to size
You want to fight back
It’s building inside you
Holding you up
Taking you hostage
Yeah, it’s worth fighting for

They’ll try to take your pride
Try to take your soul
They’ll try to take all the control
They’ll look you in the eyes
Fill you full of lies
Believe me they’re gonna try
So when you’re feeling crazy
And things fall apart
Listen to your head
Remember who you are

You’re the one
You’re the unbreakable heart
You’re the one
You’re the unbreakable heart
You’re the one
You’re the one

Hijacked when you weren’t looking
Behind your back people are talking
Using words that cut you down to size
You want to fight back
You’re out in the open
You’re under attack
But your spirit’s not broken
You know it’s worth fighting for

They’ll try to take your pride
Try to take your soul
They’ll try to take all the control
They’ll look you in the eyes
Fill you full of lies
Believe me they’re gonna try
So when you’re feeling crazy
And things fall apart
Listen to your head
Remember who you are

You’re the one
You’re the unbreakable heart
You’re the one
You’re the unbreakable heart
You’re the one
You’re the one

Don’t look them in the eyes
Believe me they’re gonna try
To fill you up with lies

They’ll try to take your pride
Try to take your soul
(You’re the one, you’re the one)
They’ll look you in the eyes
Fill you full of lies

You’re the one
You’re the unbreakable heart
You’re the one
You’re the unbreakable heart
You’re the one
You’re the one






Member suggestion by: greendayfan123456789



Fucking Perfect (Clean Edit)
By P!nk
Made a wrong turn once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good'
It didn't slow me down.
Mistaken, always second guessing
Underestimated, look I'm still around

Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me

You're so mean (so mean) when you talk (when you talk)
About yourself. You were wrong.
Change the voices (change the voices) in your head (in your head)
Make them like you instead.

So complicated,
Look how we all make it.
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game
It's enough, I've done all I could think of
Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same
(Oh oh)

Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me

The whole world's scared, so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in lying and we try, try, try but we try too hard
And it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that, why do I do that (why do I do that)?

(Yeah! Oh!)
Oh, pretty, pretty, pretty

Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me
(You're perfect, you're perfect)
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me.








Member suggestion by storystosee



The Fighter
By Gym Class Heroes ft Ryan Tedder
Just waking up in the morning
And to be well,
Quite honest with ya,
I ain't really sleep well
Ya ever feel like your train of thought's been derailed?
That's when you press on - Lee nails
Half the population's just waitin to see me fail
Yeah right, you're better off trying to freeze hell
Some of us do it for the females
And others do it for the retail

But I do it for the kids, life threw the towel in on
Every time you fall it's only making your chin strong
And I'll be in your corner like Mick, baby, 'til the end
Or when you hear a song from that big lady

[Bridge]
Until the referee rings the bell
Until both your eyes start to swell
Until the crowd goes home
What we gonna do ya'll?

[Chorus - Ryan Tedder]
Give em hell, turn their heads
Gonna live life 'til we're dead.
Give me scars, give me pain
Then they'll say to me, say to me, say to me
There goes the fighter, there goes the fighter
Here comes the fighter
That's what they'll say to me, say to me, say to me,
This one's a fighter

[Verse 2]
And if I can last thirty rounds
There's no reason you should ever have your head down
Six foot five, two hundred and twenty pounds
Hailing from rock bottom, loserville, nothing town

Text book version of a kid going nowhere fast
And now I'm yelling, "Kiss my ass"
It's gonna take a couple right hooks, a few left jabs
For you to recognize you really ain't got it bad

[Bridge]
Until the referee rings the bell
Until both your eyes start to swell
Until the crowd goes home
What we gonna do ya'll?

[Chorus - Ryan Tedder]
Give em hell, turn their heads
Gonna live life 'til we're dead.
Give me scars, give me pain
Then they'll say to me, say to me, say to me
There goes the fighter, there goes the fighter
Here comes the fighter
That's what they'll say to me, say to me, say to me,
This one's a fighter

Everybody put yo hands up
What we gonna do (hey!) [x4] y'all?
What we gonna do (hey!) [x3] y'all?

If you fall pick yourself up off the floor (get up)
And when your bones can't take no more (c'mon)
Just remember what you're here for
Cuz I know Imma damn sure

Give em hell, turn their heads
Gonna live life 'til we're dead.
Give me scars, give me pain
Then they'll say to me, say to me, say to me
There goes the fighter, there goes the fighter
Here comes the fighter
That's what they'll say to me, say to me, say to me,
This one's a fighter

'Til the referee rings the bell
'Til both ya eyes start to swell
'Til the crowd goes home,
What we gonna do kid?







Shown to me by MEBwrittings.



Love in Any Language
By Sandi Patti
Je t'aime
Te amo
Ya ti-bya lyu blyu
Ani o hev ot cha
I love you

The sounds are all as different
As the lands from which they came
And though the words are all unique
Our hearts are still the same

Love in any language
Straight from the heart
Pulls us all together
Never apart
And once we learn to speak it
All the world will hear
Love in any language
Fluently spoken here

We teach the young our differences
Yet look how we're the same
We love to laugh, to dream our dreams
We know the sting of pain

From Leningrad to Lexington
The farmer loves his land
And daddies all get misty-eyed
To give their daughter's hand

Oh maybe when we realize
How much there is to share
We'll find too much in common
To pretend it isn't there

Love in any language
Straight from the heart
Pulls us all together
Never apart
And once we learn to speak it
All the world will hear
Love in any language
Fluently spoken here

Tho' the rehtoric of government
May keep us worlds apart
There's no misinterpreting
The language of the heart

Love in any language
Straight from the heart
Pulls us all together
Never apart
And once we learn to speak it
All the world will hear
Love in any language
Fluently spoken here





Shown to me by MEBwrittings.



Change
By Carrie Underwood
Whatcha gonna do with the 36 cents
Sticky with Coke on your floorboard
When a woman on the street is huddled in the cold
On a sidewalk vent trying to keep warm

Do you call her over, hand her the Change
Ask her story, ask her her name
Or do you tell yourself

You're just a fool
Just a fool to believe you can change the world
You're just a fool
Just a fool to believe you can change the world

Oh, whatcha gonna do when you're watching TV
And an ad comes on, yeah you know the kind
Flashing up pictures of a child in need
For a dime a day you could save a life

Do you call the number, reach out a hand
Or do you change the channel, call it a scam
Or do you tell yourself

You're just a fool
Just a fool to believe you can change the world
Don't listen to 'em when they say
You're just a fool
Just a fool to believe you can change the world

Oh, the smallest thing can make all the difference
Love is alive, don't listen to 'em when they say
You're just a fool
Just a fool to believe you can change the world

The world's so big it can break your heart
And you just want to help not sure where to start
So you close your eyes, and send up a prayer into the dark

You're just a fool
Just a fool to believe you can change the world
Don't listen to 'em when they say
You're just a fool
Just a fool to believe you can change the world

Oh, the smallest thing can make all the difference
Love is alive, don't you listen to 'em when they say
You're just a fool
Just a fool to believe you can change the world






This was suggested by deci-blu.



This Song Saved My Life
By: Simple Plan
I want to start by letting you know this
because of you my life has a purpose
you helped be who i am today
I see myself in every word you say
Sometimes it feels like nobody gets me
Trapped in a world where everyone hates me
There's so much that I'm going through
I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you

[Chorus]
I was broken
I was choking
I was lost
This Song saved my life
I was bleeding stopped believing
could have died
This song saved my life
I was down
I was drowning
but it came on just in time
this song saved my life

Sometimes I feel like you've known me forever
You always know how to make me feel better
Because of you my dad and me
are so much closer than we used to be
You're my escape when I'm stuck in a small town
I turn you up whenever I feel down
you let me know like no one else
That it's ok to be myself

[Chorus]

You'll never know what it means to me
that I'm not alone
That I'll never have to be

[Chorus 2x]




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Thu Mar 27, 2014, 1:29 AM by MagicalJoey:iconmagicaljoey:
Name of Image

:tighthug: Our "Creed" :tighthug:

Hello, you've reached a quiet place, a place where you can bare your heart or simply share your soul. We are all like you - problems and pain haunt and hurt us as they do you. We don't all have the same things that consume us, but still we understand your ghosts and the trouble you face daily hurt you deeply, as ours do to us. We know pain. We try help you face it. If you remember one thing about this place, remember this: No matter what you are living or have lived through, you are accepted.
YOU. ARE. ACCEPTED





:new::bulletred::star::bulletred: A friend sent me a Whatsapp video of this gentleman today and, although I couldn't find the video itself, I did find this. Hope it leaves you with some food for thought. :bulletred::star::bulletred::new:



:star::bulletred::star: Claires' Corner :star::bulletred::star:

Claires' Corner is a life skills based initiative. It is there to teach you things, remind you of things, help you with things. All articles posted there are based off things that have been tried by at least one of the admins, whether it has worked for that admin does not matter - some things work for some and others for others. If you have any suggestions for life skills that can be addressed in Claires' Corner please note the group.

:star::bulletred::star: Letters To... :star::bulletred::star:

Letters To... is a box on the front page. The exact nature of the box is to place letters to our emotions, our negative thoughts, things that get us down. The example that will be in there shortly is a letter I wrote to my destructive ego-state, the part of my brain that contains my negative thought cycle. I know that our admin Diluculi wrote a letter to wrath. If you have a letter you wish placed there, please note the group. It can be anonymous or not, the choice is yours.

:star::star: Support Systems :star::star:
Please do use us - sometimes just having the knowledge that someone is thinking of you can help greatly.

:bulletred::star::bulletred: 1) A Thought-Hand-Prayer list where you can be listed if you need help in any way or just a thought. You can disclose why your name is on there or not. Please note either myself [MagicalJoey], Diluculi, TheButterflyOfHope or qwibes and let us know that you would like your name on the list, and if you want to why as well. Also send a note if you are doing better so we can update the list in an even more positive and supportive way.
:bulletpurple: This list is on the right hand side of the front page of the profile underneath the journal.

:bulletred::star::bulletred: 2) An "Agony Aunt" where you can send a question/complaint/issue (group related only) and one or more of the admins will answer as best they can. The admins will all be Aunt Dev so you cannot tell who has answered. You can choose to remain anon or share your dev name. If you have anything for this please email: magiccat.gm@gmail.com or note MagicalJoey.

:music::music: Song Suggestions :music::music:

I do hope that these songs are helping in some way.
WIN; WIN; WIN
I challenge you, the members, to note me MagicalJoey, with song suggestions that uplift, inspire, console, comfort, or that highlight a particular issue (As with Sophie).
You could win
:bulletblue: A custom poem written on a topic of your choice.
:bulletblue: A feature.
:bulletpurple: Both.
So...Suggest. Suggest. Suggest.

:music::star::music: Lyrics Quotes :music::star::music:


What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over 'cause you're gone

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I

From: What Doesn't Kill You By Kelly Clarkson
(Again a love song, but good lyrics nevertheless)






Naughty from Matilda the Musical
Jack and Jill, went up the hill
To fetch a pail of water, so they say
Their subsequent fall was inevitable
They never stood a chance, they were written that way
Innocent victims of their story!

Like Romeo and Juliet
T' was written in the stars before they even met
That love and fate, and a touch of stupidity
Would rob them of their hope of living happily
The endings are often a little bit gory
I wonder why they didn't just change their story?
We're told we have to do as we're told but surely
Sometimes you have to be a little bit naughty.

Just because you find that life's not fair it
Doesn't mean that you just have to grin and bear it
If you always take it on the chin and wear it
Nothing will change.

Even if you're little, you can do a lot, you
Mustn't let a little thing like, 'little' stop you
If you sit around and let them get on top, you
Might as well be saying
You think that it's ok
And that's not right!
And if it's not right!
You have to put it right

(Spoken)

Platinum blonde hair dye, extra strong.
Keep out of reach of children
Hmmm ....

Oil of violet hair tonic, for men
Yep!

(Sung)

In the slip of a bolt, there's a tiny revolt.
The seeds of a war in the creak of a floorboard.
A storm can begin, with the flap of a wing.
The tiniest mite packs the mightiest sting!
Every day, starts with the tick of a clock.
All escapes, starts with the click of a lock!
If you're stuck in your story and want to get out
You don't have to cry, you don't have to shout!

'Cause if you're little you can do a lot, you
Mustn't let a little thing like, 'little' stop you
If you sit around and let them get on top, you
Won't change a thing!

Just because you find that life's not fair, it
Doesn't mean that you just have to grin and bear it!
If you always take it on the chin and wear it
You might as well be saying
You think that it's OK.
And that's not right!
And if it's not right!
You have to put it right!

But nobody else it gonna put it right for me!
Nobody but me is going to change my story!
Sometimes you have to be a little bit naughty!







Member suggestion by storystosee



Move Along By The All American Rejects
Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong, we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
[x3]

(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along
[fade out]







Admin suggestion by Diluculi



Weak by Skunk Anansie
Lost in time I can`t count the words
(I) said when I thought they went unheard
All of those harsh thoughts so unkind
`Cause I wanted you

(And) now I sit here I`m all alone
So here sits a bloody mess, tears fly home
A circle of angels, deep in war
`Cause I wanted you

Weak as I am, no tears for you
Weak as I am, no tears for you
Deep as I am, I`m no ones fool
Weak as I am

So what am I now I'm loves last home
I`m all of the soft words I once owned
If I opened my heart, there`d be no space for air
`Cause I wanted you

In this tainted soul
In this weak young heart
Am I too much for you







Feel free to invite any friends you have who may need this group, or suggest works by people from other groups you are in who may then join us.

I do urge you to reach out to your watchers, or friends, who may need the support of this group. We are here for people from all walks of life who have suffered in any way. I know there are many other groups on DA with the same idea and principles behind them, and this is just one of many, but the more you, or your friends, share your stories the more people can try and help, or just be there with a hug and some words uttered from experience.

The more stories that are shared the more we can come to realise that maybe I went through 'this' to help 'him' along his journey, and so on and so forth. Let's help each other. We are, after all, a community and a family; one of the good type.



A quote from an email a friend sent me. If it could help someone you know please share.
"The simplest way I can describe it is... I obliterated my body with Anorexia and by pushing myself into the world to be normal, it never was able to recover. I would regularly crash and spend weeks in bed recovering, only to get back out as soon as i could and repeat the process  My whole body has basically crashed and the systems don't work, but are unable to repair themselves properly anymore. In addition, I'm constantly in the stress response, which stops the creation of normal ATP (energy chemical). No one really knows why and what and how about M.E."
M.E. is another name for Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

This group is not just for self-harmers, suicidal people or people suffering from bullying. It's for people suffering in all ways - eating disorders...anything where someone might need a poetic vent or a willing ear to listen. So spread the word about the group. Help us help others.



In this group we aim to support you through what you are going through, mainly through the writing of poetry.
Many people write poems because of how they are feeling or because they suffer from a particular disorder and cannot speak about it - so they write to vent their feelings. Here is where you can submit pieces that do that.

Any judgement by any other member or by any admin will result in a warning and then a ban for that particular person, as we are here to support each other.

If you need help, ask for it. Many of us have been through the same things you are going through and can help, even if it's just a virtual hug or some encouraging words.

The admins are here to help you. On our front page you will find a list of the admins and some of the things they have been through/experienced in their life. If you have a specific problem you are more than welcome to note that admin for help.

I can promise at least one comment on each piece you submit, even if it's just a hug from one of the admins when you need one.

Enjoy your time with us.

Jo

P.S If you have work that you don't think fits into any folder we currently have, note us with a query and a link to the deviation and we may be able to make a new folder.

:star::star: In Need Of Points :star::star:

I used some money for points (more than I could afford) and will be updating our status soon (just looking for an artist to draw the header for the journal skin I wish designed).
HOWEVER We will be needing to save for next year's renewal.
:bulletblue: If you can support via a points donation, please donate on my page (or to me) and state that the points are for this group.
:bulletpurple: If you can't support via points but can donate some cash, donate to paypal [email will be provided] also stating that the cash is for the group.
:bulletblue: If you can do neither, consider finding poetry/prose contests of any sort with points prizes (of any amount) so I can enter them.
Believe me, any amount - even just one point - can make the difference.

Claires' Corner #3

Mon Mar 24, 2014, 1:03 AM by MagicalJoey:iconmagicaljoey:
Name of Image
A LITTLE BIT OF LIFE SKILLS

Welcome to Claires’ Corner.
Please come just as you are to our couch, and maybe learn a little.

For the next two weeks we will be looking at:

Listening Skills
**Notes taken from notes given at Palm Tree Clinic, Cape Town, South Africa.

”Listening with the inner ear helps to understand the inner person.” <Anon>

Critical vs Creative

Listening is an art, a skill and a discipline.

Critical listeners dry us up. Creative listeners want us to be ourselves, even at our very worst. They are willing to hear all we have to say, even the confused ideas and feelings.

To listen intently expresses and demonstrates our love – our concern. The art of creative listening doesn’t come easily or naturally – it has to be learnt.

”We have two ears and one mouth, that we may listen the more and talk the less.” <Zen>

How Do We Listen?

Have we all forgotten how to listen these days? We seldom thoughtfully and attentively listen to another without presenting our ideas until the speaker has finished their own. How few of us listen beyond words to hear the truth of the situation.

”To answer a question before you have heard it out is both stupid and insulting.” <The Bible. Proverbs 18:13>

Silence

Good listening inevitably involves silence – creative, meaningful silence. What a small part silence plays in the course of our lives, and infrequent we experience it. When two people come together the necessity to express oneself becomes almost compulsive. If neither we nor the other person is actively talking the atmosphere is unnatural; we are uncomfortable. This is when ideas that have had no time to mature spill forth; one overlapping the other in the urge to leave no single moment unfilled with verbal expression. What a lot of incomplete thinking gets circulated as ideas are bottled up and underdeveloped because a hastily conceived thought has been flung out to fill a communication gap.

”Each of you must be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to be angry.” <The Bible. James 1:19>

Effective Listening

We obviously cannot become the perfect listener in a week, or even a lifetime, perhaps, but our relationships will improve immeasurably as our ability to listen improves.

Guideline for Effective Listening

1 Listen for Feelings:
While your speaking partner is talking listen to what they are saying, but concentrate on how they feel about what they are saying (of the situation they are describing). For example, “My sister is pregnant” could have many responses, including perhaps, “That has really upset you”, or “You seem happy about that”. This type of response shows your partner that you are hearing more than they are saying with words; you are really listening.

2 Assume Nothing About Your Speaking Partner:
Don’t assume that they know anything, or that they think any type of behaviour is right or wrong. Don’t assume anything. This will be easier if you are really concentrating on listening and understanding. With practice, you will learn to see things from the other person’s position.

3 Keep Your Language Simple:
Until you know your partner well enough to use bigger vocabulary, keep your statements and questions short and easy to understand. Say ‘talk’ instead of ‘communicate’ and ‘write’ instead of ‘correspond’. If you are listening hard you won’t have time to compose much more than simple comments and questions, and this cautious beginning will keep your partner confident that you are indeed a listener.

4 Expression:
Express yourself quietly and slowly with a somewhat tentative manner. Put a little lilt in your voice at the end of each statement as if you are not quite sure. Put a question into what you are saying. You will communicate a sincere desire to understand fully without giving the impression that you are making any judgements.

Avoid letting your partner think you either believe or disbelieve what they have told you.

Don’t agree or disagree with any of their statements.

5 Don’t Feel Forced:
Don’t feel forced into giving opinions or answers. Try to turn their demands back to them. Say things like “You seem to think my opinion is important” or “You wish someone could give you an easy answer”

If you want someone to spend more time on an idea, ask them to repeat what they said or to explain in a different way. You could repeat their last few words questioningly, or say “You said ... “ and repeat their previous statements as a question. But be sure you don’t interrupt their train of thought.

6 Silence:
Allow Silences. If your partner stops talking, but you feel they are not really finished, don’t let the silence make you nervous. They may be thinking through something really important. After a while say “You seem to be thinking hard” or “I’m still here” or “I’m wondering what you can be thinking”. Just remind them you are there.

7 Wait For the Full Stop (Period):
Never interrupt or break in on what they are saying. Wait until they have reached a full stop (period) in what they are saying before you respond.

”If a word burns on your tongue, let it burn.” <Persian saying>

In Closing

When I ask you to listen to me and you start giving me advice you have not done what I have asked.
When I ask you to listen to me and you begin to tell me why I shouldn’t feel that way, you are trampling on my feelings.
When I ask you to listen to me and you feel you have to do something to solve my problem, you have failed me, strange as that may seem.

Listen.All I asked was that you listen, not talk or do – just hear me.
Advice is cheap: 20 cents will get you both Dear Abby and Billy Graham in the same newspaper. And I can do that for myslf; I am not helpless. Maybe discouraged and faltering, but not helpless. When you do something for me that I can and need to do for myself, you contribute to my fear and weakness.

But, when you accept as a simple fact that I do feel what I feel, no matter how irrational, then I can quit trying to convince you and can get about the business of understanding what’s behind this irrational feeling. And when that’s clear, the answers are obvious and I don’t need advice.

Irrational feelings make sense when we understand what’s behind them. Perhaps that’s why prayer works, sometimes, for some people because God is mute, and doesn’t give advice on how to fix things. “They” just listen and let you work it out for yourself.

So, please listen and just hear me.
And, if you want to talk, wait a minute for your turn; and I’ll listen to you.”
~Anon


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From: MagicalJoey

Dear Self-Destructive Ego-State

Though I talk to the “Higher Being” a lot about you I don’t talk to you, and that is purposeful; the less I mention you the more chance I have of forgetting your horrid existence. Even in prayers or desperate cries I only refer to you as ‘it’. “God what is the purpose of having ‘IT’”, “God what should I learn from ‘IT’”. IT. IT. IT, I never mention your name because I am afraid of your power.

I don’t need to mention your name when explaining our relationship to people. In that instance all I need to say is ‘this’ and show my arms where you kissed me sweetly oh so long ago. They look, some not seeing until I reiterate ‘this’ and point to a specific seduction, and nod in recognition of you. But they don’t know me. They don’t know the relationship we had, how I still miss you terribly and how I wish for just one more kiss – even if it is the accidental kiss of death. Don’t get me wrong, I am not asking you to murder me, I just acknowledge that there is a possibility – which is why I had to abandon you three years ago.

I met you during an extra-ordinary internal emotional dance. I was 14 and a wallflower drowned out by emotion erupting internally and scorching my heart and soul. I could not open my mouth to speak my pain and you saw that. You swept in like a dashing prince, cloak billowing behind him. I was blinded by that charm that promised peace, that offered me a voice. I accepted your open hand and we were married forthwith, no ceremony except the line of light cute upon my foot. We were officially together, forever, and I definitely never mentioned your name, even though you were my reality. I never looked beyond your kiss to the possibility of consequences, of addiction, of such utter hopelessness that I would be begging you, my saviour, to be my salvation in death. And I still could not utter your name.

I speak now to Depression, a companion for as long as I can remember. You’ve been with me, enhancing my mood with your tentacles of darkness. Whenever I tried making friends you would encircle me in a fall of feelings of inadequacy, worthlessness, pathetic-ness, and, so, with my self-esteem so low it wasn’t even the size of a grain of sand, I would stand there, embarrasses, until I was the one to turn and run in fear with you following behind in utter glee, cackling like the witch of mirth. You encircled me with that wall from my earliest peer experience and eventually I gave up trying to befriend anyone other than you, but you could not be tamed as a friend. You could never be trusted – especially when you put up your own walls against yourself. You became a darkly mysterious companion, aloof yet exceptionally jealous.

You placed your hands over my eyes and I had to look through your splayed fingers at the world. Everything was jaded, tainted, and I did not know because that was what I was used to. I saw the world as a dark, scary, lonely, unhappy place from where you anointed me at birth until I realised that others did not share this view. You have been my longest companion, you you are still unpredictable and easily excited.

I refused to acknowledge your existence until I was about twenty, but by then both you and your dashing brother-in-arms ‘Self Harm’ had me firmly caught. My self-esteem was so low that I needed both of you to survive – rather survive in solitude than die alone.

Do you have any idea what you stole from me? The friends I could have had? The life I could have lived? Brave instead of always scared. Never surrounded by people yet alone, but surrounded by people and having fun. I could have had friends at school – people to talk to instead of the imaginary people from books. I could have been invited to birthdays instead of hearing about them afterwards. I was so good at keeping you a secret to myself I could have kept a friend’s secret easily, but you gave me no chance. You chained me to one spot while the other children danced and moved around me. You rendered me powerless. Unable to join them, unable to look away, always longing and yearning for a friend.

And if you did let me have one, you had made sure that, by causing my emotions to not mature at the same rate as my mind, I would do some emotionally childish thing and they would leave. I went for 19 YEARS without a friend who could stick by my side despite you FFS. I am now 26 – that is more than half my life utterly alone and dependant on you. And now I am so freaking scared of doing the wrong thing or saying the wrong thing that I sabotage the whole thing. Because of you I am so terrorfied of losing friends that I am perpetually on the outside loking at a group of people wondering ‘what if’. I can at least own up to you by name now. You are Depression. I have you as an illness. Though you still have so much control. At the moment you own me. However, no matter how many layers of Hell I have to go through, I will own you before I die naturally. You’re like a giant squid with inky tentacles everywhere in my life. You’ve had me for 26 years ffs can’t you let me go now? Oh I am working on prying you loose; medication is in my system, I have identified that you like to isolate me, I know how to change one of your thoughts into a positive. I just have to work on identifying those damn thoughts. But you can be controlled and one day I will be the one in control and not you. One. Damn. Day.

I refer back to Self-Harm, Depression’s dashing friend. From the first time I saw you at 14 you became the voice of my emotions. The voice of those things I could never utter – what depression hid behind my smile. The smile started to work via clockwork – I needed you to wind it yo or else it would fail. And so I relied on you more and more. Scars on feet let to scars on shoulders and then arms. Four times you kissed too deeply and I needed stitches. I began to realise the danger of letting you near me. I was sent for help, for your friend Depression, and would not admit that I had a problem. You laughed and kicked back for a long luxurious stay. But I foiled your plans by admitting to Depression and seeking help – from someone who then knew about you. And still I never spoke your name, I just had to show old would, or a new one with the caption, “I did ‘IT’ again”. If I say who you are it makes you real.

I’ve already triggered my brain so there is no reason to stop now. Graphics warning.

I loved the way you accepted me. You were always there – a lover and a friend. I would watch your kisses open my skin and as the thin dots of blood beaded all my pain would leave. I could breathe again. The pressure beating inside was gone. My body had spoken what I could not. And as you kissed over and over again I would finally feel the pain I deserved, the pain I needed, the pain even Depression with its numbing balm refused to let me feel. Your kisses brought a smile to my face. The pain healed my heart. The blood was like dancing with life itself. And then you became dangerous.

A couple of small kisses no longer brought that painful release from pain, and I began wanting you when I was in a decent internal shape. I no longer just wanted the healing pain; I just wanted pain.

That’s when the stitches began, officially, as you had to dive deeper for the same pain as before. After trying to use your dashing face in place of the reaper’s, I put you down. Locked you away and have fought to keep you locked away ever since. I still do not speak your name.

If I speak your name it makes you real. It means that the dashing man turns into a devil. It makes you a hinder, not a help. It makes our relationship a lie. A scam. A con.

You have been my closest and dearest friend since I was 14, and the last three years, as I abandoned you, you have desperately tried to cling on, digging your claws deep into memories of the sweet, affectionate kisses. My mind can’t let go of the darker kisses and so I reject you, painful as it is. Let me now speak truthfully of you – your name as it means to me. I am a cutter. I am a burner. I do not suffer from ‘IT’, I suffer from Self-Harm. I hurt myself on purpose. I cut. I burn.

I’ve said it and made you real. Now piss off and let me live.

Me.

P.S. Stop your tricky little mind games. Every time my self-esteem tales a snail-step of courage forward you, Depression, are there with your mocking laugh and pointing fingers. You give me wishes that are toxic and thoughts that are negative. Then Self-Harm swoops in to save the day with all the answers. Seriously, piss off. Get your own life. Get a room.

Piss off out of my head.


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ShiFate 2 days ago  New member
Hi, its me :icongreendayfan123456789:, just letting you know Ihave moved accounts :)
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:iconmagicaljoey:
Oh god I am so not going to remember that...
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ShiFate 4 hours ago  New member
xD I feel ya
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:iconjerrekedb:
Sorry if I'm spamming your submission list, but for some reason I don't get a correspondence message in my messages when I try to submit my work "Aspie shutdown" to the Emotional literature folder.
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:iconjerrekedb:
Never mind, it suddenly appeared :|
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qwibes Apr 12, 2014   Writer
Good :)
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Diluculi Jan 9, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:hug:
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TheGrimOnes Dec 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I must say, this is a wonderful group run by wonderful people :heart:

~ Unknown number two
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:iconmagicaljoey:
Thank you very much for the compliment. :tighthug:
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